In my last blog post I wrote about The Light At The End of the Tunnel and I thought that I was going to see it on my last trip to Victoria to the BC Cancer Agency.
I made the 4-hour trip on my own, in traffic, eager to hear what I thought I was going to hear from my oncologist … that I would not have to go back for more breast cancer follow-ups for at least 6-12 months. I was very optimistic as I had been feeling pretty good.
However, I was disappointed to find that my oncologist felt there was still too much inflammation and other effects from radiation, as well as trying to find the reason behind my persistent bone pain, and so that I would have to go back for a follow up in 2-months, which would be around April. I was not just disappointed, I was, to be honest, kind of devastated. Yep, it took the wind out of my sails.
So I have committed myself to write more, as it is therapeutic, and I will share some of my writings here, as I have energy to do so. I have, however, really underestimated the amount of mental energy especially, that it takes to complete tasks, and how hard it can be some days. That includes writing.
Chemo-Brain, they call it, and I hope that it lifts soon.
On another note, friends have decided and encouraged me that I need another, and new, fundraising campaign to help get me through the next few months especially, and I have agreed to do so. I will be posting a new link, to a new fundraising request in my next blog post, and hope that you can help in some way, and to at least help spread the word.
Love,
Brenda Johima and Dr. T. (Teddy)
