I have been doing a lot of letting go lately. More than the average.
Letting go of everything all at once, is only for the very brave and courageous … or … because the Universe says you must let go and “so there, take this!” … [Insert a minor bit of humour]
Letting go of job, career, house and home, relationships, family and friends, cancer, community and geography, on and on, all at the same time, to the point of leaving me with a blank slate, and completely alone, has felt like insanity, like chaos, and indeed has been, a crisis.
Some of this, I chose. Some of it, has just happened.
It’s been hard. Very hard. Painful. Lonely.
I never imagined it would turn out this hard. I never imagined that all of this could happen to me at the same time. I never knew how hard I would have to work to try to turn around an entire life. It’s completely overwhelming. How will I do it? Where will I go? Can I do it?
There has been no way around it, but to walk right into and through the fire. I’m not yet out the other side. Burned but not resentful. Simply exhausted.
It WILL get better!
And the good news is, so many kind humans are jumping in to lend a hand in some way. Things will turn around with time. XO