As one who prides myself on punctuality and in past, applauded myself for never missing deadlines … breast cancer has turned all of that (perfectionism and incredibly high standards) on its head and right upside down.
I am missing deadlines and I am late and I am not getting things done very quickly, if at all. Breast cancer slowed everything down, and sometimes, to a complete halt. It’s OK.
Today, I have to surrender and just let it all go and accept that it just might be that way for awhile … and ohhhhhhhh, my goodness, I just might be human!
I started this new blog/website/journal with great intentions.
My intention was to write here every day, or at least every other day. I have great ideas and I have many many posts in my head that simply never got written down and posted here.
Now, I would have to try and catch up and to remember the flavour of my words, and the intensity of emotions I was feeling at the time of the situations and events … well, you know what that is like, and how that goes. It would likely read as though somebody was trying to remember what they felt like in the moment, but are writing it a month or two weeks later. You can tell. You can feel it. (unless you are an incredibly gifted writer…those storytelling folks CAN pull it off)
So, can I catch up? Not likely. Will I try? Maybe. Ha Ha.
There are a few journal posts, blog posts I wanted to write … what the heck am I going to call this thing anyway? Blog? Journal? Website? Journey?
I am not a huge fan of the word “blog” but it is the way things are on the internet in the blogging and blogger world … and blog is how so much is indexed with SEO and all (says a past search engine optimization professional) online … blogs, blog indexes, blog directories and such.
I do love the word journal. It’s more me, and more what I intend this space to be.
So you will see me flip between blog and journal until I decide … the language of the “word” blog or journal doesn’t matter Brenda, just write. Just write. Just feel and write.
So now that I have admitted to you that I cannot catch up … I will spend my morning trying to catch up. Ha. Ha. … and get four posts written down that I really want to talk to you about and to share:
- Teddy, my standard poodle and the AMAZING amount of love and support I am getting from a Facebook group of almost 6000 standard poodle owners and their dogs! It IS, simply a miracle, this group of people have changed my life, literally.
- My hotel stay at Accent Inns Victoria and the kindness and friendliness that this pet friendly hotel exudes.
- My gratitude and applause for the BC Cancer Agency Vancouver Island Centre (Victoria B.C.) where I get treatment for breast cancer.
- My stay at the Vancouver Island Lodge, which are accommodations run by the Canadian Cancer Society (for those traveling from out of town to treatment in the city)
- More more more !
So that is enough rambling and catching up for now. Am I caught up yet?
I will be right back here with more writings, really soon!